I've recently started to notice that I can be very emotional. I'm writing it on here because it makes me feel better to get it out of my head. So here it goes:
Presley, the first time I held you in my arms and looked into your beautiful eyes; I knew that you made my heart vulnerable. I've noticed that I cry when I hear or read about a child being killed or hurt. I cry when I read a parents grief about losing a child to a medical condition. I cry when I hear on the news about a child being killed by their own parents or stranger. I cry when I see an innocent child being born into a life where they are set to fail from the beginning. I've never really cried about anything. This is all new to me. When I hear of these terrible things I feel like I've been punched in the stomach. I cry because I'm a mother now, and I couldn't imagine not coming home to you. When I hear and see these stories I think about you. I fear of losing you. Just because I cry it doesn't mean I'm not strong. It only means I'm stronger because I will do
EVERYTHING & ANYTHING to protect you.
Wade, I know when you look over at me and see me crying it's hard to see this. It's hard to see the girl you met who never cried, cry. The moment when we looked into each other’s eyes and said “I do." I knew that I could take down part of that wall that I've spent most of my life creating. Feeling sad isn't new to me. It's feeling sad and showing it, that's new to me. I'm still your tough girl, and I can still take jokes. I know you may think it's silly when I cry over someone I don't know, but truth is I may not know them but I do know it could happen to anyone. I couldn't imagine not coming home to you or Presley. You both define the person I am today, a mother & wife. You both are my life and this is a new beginning for me. When I cry, please lend me your shoulder. When I laugh, please laugh with me. When I'm angry, please talk to me. I've let part of this wall down for you. If you must know I've never let this wall down for anyone.

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